I am excited to move to Paris but nervous at the same time and a little sad. I have been with my boyfriend for three in a half years. He has been my everything. We made out relationship work when I was in New York and he was in LA but this time, will be different. A few weeks after I move, there will no longer be a me and him. It is heart breaking as I love him but if I did not move to Paris and stayed in Los Angeles, I would resent him and he would resent me if I made him move to Paris. I do not want us to end but I know we will. I am trying to grip every last minutes, moment and memory that I can. I know we will try to stay friends but that is hard. Every couple say they will stay friends with their ex but it is hard. I have been with other guys before but none as special as him. He has made me laugh like no one else. He has made me cry out of joy and pain. I do not want to forget any moment I have had with him. I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with him and raise a family with him.
The breakup is mutual even though it is breaking my heart. I know that right after we break up, we won’t be able to talk as it will be too hard for me. I will have to really dig myself in work. I am going to need to grieve. I wish I could have Paris and him. But, I guess… If I am going to be sad, might as well be sad in Paris.