When will I move on?

Today, I read a story that my friend posted about her ex and long distance relationships. I told her how I could relate to her story with how I am grieving for Irwin. I miss him and hate being away from him. I left Los Angeles because I was not happy with my over all, but I was happy with him. My friend Max asked me that if I loved him, why did I leave? I told him that it was because moving here was my dream. I don’t regret leaving. It was the scariest and bravest moment of my life. Leaving my family was easy but leaving him was horrible. The man I loved. It was the hardest thing I have ever done and I have had a life time of hard decisions from the time I was two. I know loss more than anyone. I lost my mother( twice), my acting coach, grandparents, friends and now him. She told me that it takes half the amount of time that we were together to get over him. I was with him for 3 years 7 months and 10 days so that means we were together for 1290 days. Half of that is 645 days so by January 17th, 2017 I should finally be over him.

My scariest though is what if I never stop loving him in that way and never find anyone else.

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About Flora Cross

21 year old actress and teacher. Born in Paris and raised around the world. Have lived in Panama, Haiti, Ukraine, Argentina, Israel, New York, and Los Angeles for the last nine years. Want to become a teacher for children with special needs. Loved education and life. Loves literature music and anything artistic. Moving to Paris. Favorite Musicians: Janis Joplin, The Civil Wars, Ray Charles, Frank Sinatra, Ella Fitzgerald, Amy Winehouse, Adele, The Pretty Reckless, Birdy, Bastille, Miley Cyrus, Lorde, Macklemore, Idina Menzel, Avicii, A Great Big World, Passenger, Pink and The Beatles. Flora played the lead role of Eliza in the 2005 film Bee Season, opposite Richard Gere, Juliette Binoche and Max Minghella. She auditioned for the part shortly before moving to Argentina, where she was living when offered the role. Her next role was playing the eccentric daughter of Jennifer Jason Leigh's character in director Noah Baumbach's critically acclaimed Margot at the Wedding. In the film she worked alongside actors Nicole Kidman, Jack Black, John Turturro, and fellow teen actor Zane Pais. Flora plays the co-starring role of Cynthia in the upcoming film "Chlorine" (currently in post-production), written and directed by Jay Alaimo. The film also stars Kyra Sedgwick and Vincent D'Onofrio as Cynthia's troubled parents, and Ryan Donowho as her eccentric brother.
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