I am the type of person that no matter how many times, I have been burned with the word “love”, I will always try to find love. I will always give a 100% of myself when it comes to relationships. Maybe, that is a mistake. I rather get hurt than, not know or regret not allowing myself to feel emotion.
I need to feel connected to people, no matter what. And, now there is this guy and I only just met him, but my feelings for him grow stronger and stronger each day. It scares me a little bit. I am not sure where this will lead, but I am going to dive in and whatever happens, happens. I just hope that I do not get my heart broken. I feel everything so strongly and I get attached so quickly. I don’t trust most people so, when I do, I try to make sure I am not being stupid.
I hate that the monsters in my head are so scared of love, because I’ve been broken before. It’s been two years since I was in my last relationship. When that relationship ended, I almost did not survive. I was with him for almost four years, and it only ended because I left to follow my dreams, but it still hurt and broke me.
All I want is to find the one, eventually. The guy that will support my dreams, be there to comfort me, be my best friend and love me unconditionally. I want a traveling companion. Someone who understands me. I want to have my own family. I am still young, but it is what I am searching for.