A letter to Bill

Dear Bill,

Today would have been your birthday. You would have been 79 years old. I miss you so much. I would do anything to have you here, or have one more day with you. I wish you could have seen me graduate high school, and college. I wish you could have seen me start my first teaching job. I wonder what you have thought about me being a teacher and not an actress. I know you would have been happy and proud of me as long as I was happy. You were always so amazing and kind. I miss your voice. I miss your advice. I wish I could talk to you about boys.

I hate that you are not here. You not being here still makes me cry. Every year, twice a year, on the anniversary of your death and on your birthday, it hits me like a ton of bricks and I can’t breath and all I want is to have you here and have you hold me. I loved our daily movie nights with dinner and ice cream at home. I loved living with you. I loved watching jeopardy and American idol with you. I loved reading you my scripts that I was writing at the time.  I loved having you as my best friend.

I wanted more time. I thought we had time. You died when I was 15 and now, I am 23 years old. They say the pain fades, no it doesn’t and I don’t think it ever will. You are missing so much of my life. You are going to miss being at my wedding when I get married to whoever, me having kids and me opening my own school. I hope you are proud of me.

I love you and I always will.

Thank you for influencing my life and changing it for the better.

I miss everything about you. The stories I wish I could tell you.


About Flora Cross

21 year old actress and teacher. Born in Paris and raised around the world. Have lived in Panama, Haiti, Ukraine, Argentina, Israel, New York, and Los Angeles for the last nine years. Want to become a teacher for children with special needs. Loved education and life. Loves literature music and anything artistic. Moving to Paris. Favorite Musicians: Janis Joplin, The Civil Wars, Ray Charles, Frank Sinatra, Ella Fitzgerald, Amy Winehouse, Adele, The Pretty Reckless, Birdy, Bastille, Miley Cyrus, Lorde, Macklemore, Idina Menzel, Avicii, A Great Big World, Passenger, Pink and The Beatles. Flora played the lead role of Eliza in the 2005 film Bee Season, opposite Richard Gere, Juliette Binoche and Max Minghella. She auditioned for the part shortly before moving to Argentina, where she was living when offered the role. Her next role was playing the eccentric daughter of Jennifer Jason Leigh's character in director Noah Baumbach's critically acclaimed Margot at the Wedding. In the film she worked alongside actors Nicole Kidman, Jack Black, John Turturro, and fellow teen actor Zane Pais. Flora plays the co-starring role of Cynthia in the upcoming film "Chlorine" (currently in post-production), written and directed by Jay Alaimo. The film also stars Kyra Sedgwick and Vincent D'Onofrio as Cynthia's troubled parents, and Ryan Donowho as her eccentric brother.
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